One night stands out

Happy new year 2012!

2012-01-06T01:01:00.000-08:00

The booms and crackles of the fireworks awakened the night sky, music and laughter dance in the hot humid air surrounded with thousands of people welcoming the new year of 2012. Can you believe it? I barely could. I remember watching the movie '2012' during the year 2010, telling myself its a long way more to go to actually worry about the world ending? (not that i worry about it , it is just a movie) haha. i hope for a better year. Wishing all a year of peace, happiness, joy , good health and wealth. 18 this year, no more playing around and making immature decisions. Time to study hard and live life meaningfully. I'm not going to bother about making new year resolutions because i had all these every year but only a few were followed but others fell by the wayside and are still collecting dust! I just have one goal in mind.

Farewell bbq party for Kum Fong and those going for NS.

This year we celebrated at Publika

Breaking the rules on new year eves- speeding 120km/h :D

At Aria Italianese restaurant. Thank you for planning such a wonderful party ! (:

They had a night to be taller than me . Just one night ;P

so much laughter and joy!

Starting the first day of 2012 with a long deep snooze haha

Sending Yu yu off for Ns ! All the best Yu yu (:

Starting the new year with a new i phone and lap top and credit card is awesome. how could i ask for more !

Prom '11

2012-01-06T00:32:00.001-08:00

So the night that every high school students had been looking forward to had finally came. Gentlemen wearing donned ties with suave-looking suits and leather shoes, ladies looking all stunning with their elegant dresses and high heels on. All ever ready to dance throughout the night and make wonderful memories on their last night together.

Theme: Teenage dream

Date: 28th December

Time: 6.30pm till 11.30pm

Venue: Grand Millenium Hotel

The tickets

My finger nails that i've painted. (goldfish) I dont know why people mistaken it as flowers!

the two -that -dont -wear -dress, are actually wearing it now and looking stunningly beautiful!

My pretty ladies (:

My prom date. i remember when he asked me to go to prom with him, i made him make a deal with me . Conditions like he have to fetch my best friend tze yu and amanda along to prom, allowing me to pay for half of the prom fees and buying him a tie (the tie that he is wearing on the above photo ! (: and last but not least be taller than me on that day ! haha. he managed to keep to all the conditions except for the last one. LOL.

The toilet is quite impressive, not the ballroom hall.

Unforgettable Memories created (': Love you all loads !

A Shopaholic ?

2012-01-06T00:06:00.001-08:00

Tze yu and i out for shopping.

she shares my passion (;

Recently I've been really addicted to shopping and spending money. especially during the sales season. i particularly shop till i drop i tell you. (TILL BUTTERFLIES FLEW OUT OF MY PURSE)

OK, i am going to confess my biggest fear.

When i'm in shops, i secretly scan the prize, calculating the money i have, and processing in my mind how long till i gain the money to buy the product . And when i want it i must have it. I 'd drove all the way alone to buy this shirt that i've dream of the last night. I drove to Damansara Utama because i am badly craving for Chatime (i didn't know the way) and i got lost nearby KL . I borrow people money to buy things i really want to have it right now right this moment even though i am totally broke. i think about shopping 24/7.

I've been in deep thought wondering whether i am a shopaholic and needs immediete attention to cure this sever 'disease' of mine. haha. So i googled 'signs of being a shopaholic' and here is the answer:

1. You buy things even though you can’t afford them.
2. You believe others would be horrified if they found out about your spending habits.
3. You write checks even though you know there’s not enough in the bank to cover them.
4. If you have any money left at the end of a pay period, you feel compelled to spend it.
5. You make only the minimum payments on your credit-card statements (if you make any at all).
6. You feel anxious or nervous on days you don’t go shopping.
7. You buy things to make yourself feel better.

and i scored 5 out of 7.

Up up here we go.

2011-11-30T06:08:00.000-08:00

Bukit tinggi.

The french town where we enter.

Weather up here is really nice wish the entire Malaysia weather could be like this.

(I need a new sunglasses)

Feeding swans from your hand is totally like a free hand massage.

Funny its covered up with an extra brown layer.

Such beautiful art.

Cutest thing ever!

This is a hair.

In order and in line.

Facttoknow :Elephants eat the skin of bananas as well. No need to peel.

Spend Rm40 on tokens to win a big teddy. remind me never to do that again.

Have i told you colours make me so happy?(:

Ducklings are not cute anymore. i have no doubt they have very few number 1's and 2's in it.

Hello bug your species annoy me.

P/S:Remind me to think twice of agreeing to go somewhere up the hills. Headache like hell.

Goodbye High Shcool, Hello College.

2011-11-30T05:39:00.000-08:00

Spm has finally came and gone. At least for me. i havent been studying as hard as i could. but lets just say what done is done to cheer myself up. Just hope that i could get straight A's. I took 8 subjects, dropping bio after a very 'enormous' effort of pestering my parents to let me do so. I am not feeling entirely over the moon right now. Spm is over. That day was my last day in SMK Taman S.E.A. Last day of wearing a school uniform and school shoes. Part of me feels like everything is coming to an end soon. I have no idea why do i feel like everything- friends i like, people i love will be left behind and i will start a new journey in life. i feel like time is limited and i have to treasure and appreciate people that are dear to me because soon time like this will remain as sweet memories in my mind only. You know college is a month away.

When it rains,

2011-11-06T20:06:00.000-08:00

I cant figure out why i like it when it rains heavily and when the thunder rumbles . Especially when it's at night and when the lighting strikes it brightens up your entire room. I tried linking it to my past. And thought may be i like the feeling of it because i used to felt secured and assured at that time. We used to stay in a teres house. My dad, my mum, my sister and i would sleep in the master bedroom together. And when lighting strikes i get afraid, but the feeling of being scared got swept away soon by the feeling of security after finding all of them right beside me.

Raining left a lot of bittersweet memories in me. I remember my first crush. He plays basketball with me every weekends. Every Saturday i will stare at the sky praying hard and making deals with God so it doesn't rain. Just so I'd be able to see him. The feeling of disappointment when it rains and Joy when it stopped raining just on time.

I remember my 3rd ex holding a red umbrella to shade me from the light rain, sharing an umbrella just enough to cover the both of us when we squeezed closed enough. I also remember having no choice to buy an umbrella from the LRT station so that my 4th ex and i could reached school under the heavy thunderous rain. And by the time we reached, our clothes and shoes were soaking wet and both of us were shivering in cold! My 5th one and i, we raced through the rain while laughing and playing under the rain! Wearing matching raincoat attire speed walking under the slight drizzle at Camerons with my recent one, flirting around with each other under the rain..

Those were really happy moments.
That money cant buy, clock cant be rewind and people cant be replaced.

PS: I'm not being stuck in my past just because i mention people in my past relationship. To me, they had made me experience joy, they had been part of my growing- up- teenage life.

Too much information!

2011-10-20T21:16:00.000-07:00

May be i should change my blog to private. Its giving me creeps.

Behind every man

2011-10-15T19:50:00.000-07:00

Behind those many piercings and tattoo, its not just as simple as u think: done for beauty. It's actually done to fool people to think that people with it are are tough and strong enough to bear the needles poking through skin. It is to put up a strong appearance. My parents would never aprrove me of having a tattoo or may be my mother in law would never approve me for that. But the truth is tattoo is just a piece of art. Everybody have an impression that people with tattoo are wild. But to think about it, its nothing more than an appearance. You clearly cant judge a book by it's cover . If you are naive enough to judge people with tattoo for that, i think you are not worth them caring about what you think. If you cant accept them for who they are, it is your loss. Often people with tattoo has anothere side of them. If you spend time knowing them you would know that there's so much more in them. There's always a meaning behind every piercings and tattoo. And there's always a reason behind every pain.

2011-10-07T23:46:00.000-07:00

if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain. ...

We dress to kill

2011-10-07T23:24:00.000-07:00

So we had a sleepover at Tze yu's huge villa house and this is what we did the night before. Called some hot dudes and party till late night (: SPM is not over yet just trials but like i'd said we study real hard and party harder.

Date: 3rd of OCT 2011
Venue: Sunway pyramid
Time: Supposed to be 7pm but you know guys are always late.

This is camera-shy Amanda (:
(Excuse my dress its making me look like i'm pregnant)

Photogenic Ann gie (:

Sexy long legs Tze Yu

We had our dinner at Full house restaurant. I had dory fish and mash potato.

Though this picture is imperfect ( with Amanda's hand) haha i like it cause both of us have the same eyes ahah (;

Our sexy backs

The hot dudes

and the pretty ladies (:

Had the time of my life?

Forgive me

2011-10-07T23:06:00.000-07:00

MARCH 2011

I held you close by my arms. I felt the pain you were feeling just now as you were handled roughly by this person. You kept struggling and kicking hard so that you could be set free. But the more you struggle, you were grabbed even tighter on the stomach by the person. I hear you screaming silently and yet i was helpless. I felt really bad for not being able to stop it. I'm sorry. As i stroke you gently now as a sign of reassurance that you are safe in my arms. The guilt is killing me. I apologized to you hoping to gain your trust back. I shed tears for you later when i was alone. I've never felt such strong love towards someone before. I guess you are my life now.

(:

2011-09-27T01:19:00.000-07:00

Its suffering but its not unbearable (:

Tyre Puncture

2011-09-20T23:13:00.000-07:00

This was the first time my car tyre got punctured after driving for less than 2 months. And ON A RAINY DAY. how awesome was that. Luckily my friends were beside me at that time. Thank you to Kum Fong for having enough knowledge to change the tyre, Hatta, Tze yu and Ann Gie and not forgetting the passer bys who were helpful enough to give a word or two. I MUST learn how to change my tyre in the future and study more about how the car function. haha I didnt even know that there was a spare tyre in my car. I am an independent lady with a license.

2011-09-16T06:45:00.001-07:00

Here are some positive quotes to get you through life(:

All the best in life

2011-09-16T06:30:00.000-07:00

This would be an optimistic post after being in the dumps for so long (; haha.
Usually i have been wandering around aimlessly, having no goals in my life. But recently, i've made up my mind. I'm grateful for this person for inspiring me in my life. He taught me to stand up for myself (Not taught me in a good way but let me endure it) haha. Anyway, i learned to be independent and not to rely on anyone else. I'm going to study hard for spm and get straight A's. I'm looking forward to my future for the first time and i'm actually doing something about it. I have plans to study SAM at either Taylors college or Sunway college for ten months and then continue my studies in Australia. I'm going to live on and though i have doubts about my future, one thing i know is i want to be someone succesful next time. And when i say it you know i mean it. Though the future is unpredictable, I'm not as afraid as i used to be about it anymore. Because i know no matter what happen, i will manage to go through it. Fingers cross (:

You.

2011-09-16T06:23:00.000-07:00

We could have had it all but we didn't. Sometimes i question myself, why would you want to do such things to us. Cant we just be like any other happy ordinary couples on earth. But then i thought, you are just being you. You are being strong and protecting yourself in a way and stubborn a little after you made up your mind. You wouldn't be you if you'd be the way i wanted you to be. and i wouldn't have fall for you if you weren't being you (:

What are words?

2011-09-11T22:11:00.001-07:00

Chris, an aspiring singer, said he fell in love with Juliana the first moment he saw her and the two became engaged in the coffee shop she worked in, in 2007.

They had planned to wed two years after getting engaged, but shortly before they could walk down the aisle, Juliana suffered a brain injury in a tragic car accident.

On the exact day they were supposed to get married, Chris shared a song he wrote for his ladylove on Facebook.What are words

" Anywhere you are, i'm near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone "

Break Up Advice

2011-09-11T21:56:00.000-07:00

"You might feel worthless to one person, but you are priceless to another. Don't ever forget your value." -Luanlegacy

Hope this will help to heal people who has been hurt by their loved ones and look at life from a different perspective. It's just a matter of time. You'll be okay (:

Lessons learnt

2011-09-11T21:25:00.000-07:00

from the had-been-so-wonderful 7 months break up:

NEVER

love with all you heart b'cs when he's gone,
it will be in pieces.

NEVER
let him be the only reason you are smiling,
b'cs when he's gone, you'll find yourself wanting to be happy so badly but cant.

NEVER
let him take complete control over you,
b'cs you wouldn't be in control of you life after that .

NEVER
stop talking to your friends
b'cs when he is gone, you'll need them eventually.

NEVER
let him be your life,
b'cs when he's gone, you have no life.

NEVER
fall for the little things he does for you,
b'cs he will do it for another girl he fancy next time

NEVER
give yourself completely away,
b'cs when he left, he took part of you away as well

NEVER
believe in his promise b'cs eventually it will be empty promises.

NEVER
fall for the sweet things he said
b'cs eventually you will hold on tightly to every single words he said.

NEVER
think that he's the nicest guy in the world
b'cs he's treating you nice now b'cs he loves you.

NEVER
let him take up all your spare time
b'cs when he's gone you have nothing left to do.

NEVER
make beautiful memories together.
b'cs when he's gone, it seems like being in a dream only.

P/S: Thanks for teaching me so many lessons in my life (:

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2011-09-03T22:11:00.000-07:00

There is nothing more beautiful then a person
whose hearts been broken,
but still believes in love.
Could you do that for me?

Skyscraper - Demi Lovato

2011-09-03T21:44:00.000-07:00

I really like this song because it makes me feel that there's always still hope in life and that one day i'll be strong, rising from the ground like a skyscraper. Demi was under depression for some time. But now, she came back from rehab and is doing better than ever. She's working with some of hip-hop's hottest producers Missy Elliot and Timbaland to create a hot new record. God bless her.

Skies are crying, I am watching

Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending, like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

As the smoke clears
I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed
All my windows still are broken but I'm standing on my feet

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

Go run run run I'm gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear yeah
Go run run run yeah it's a long way down
But I'm closer to the clouds up here

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Ohh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

Someone up there

2011-09-03T21:07:00.000-07:00

SPM is near, trials are nearer. Many things have been happening recently and i cant seem to put my mind focusing on the most important thing that matters to me- my studies. Did i regret not paying attention in school for the pass two years? Not really. because i thought i would be able to catch up (with a brain and intelligence of mine) That's what you people say. You all said that I'm smart, its just that i didn't put my mind into it yet. Just because i got no.6 place in class when i was form one, straight A's for UPSR and 7A's in PMR. And soon i started believing it, believing a lie till i find it not necessary to pay attention in school. Because since form1 till form3 i relied on myself not the teachers in school. Now i still believe that i could do so. Everyone is expecting me to obtain excellent results and get a scholarship, even myself. But now, i realise i cant even live up to my expectations for myself.

Who would have thought that some things would suddenly come up at this time, the time when i'm most fragile and emotionally unstable by the pressure and stress? This was the time i least expected it to happen. I lost someone that i really need to help me go through this period of time (trials), to teach me maths and add maths, and most importantly to encourage me that i'm not stupid, i can do it and to strongly believe in myself.( I mean who would want to waste their time teaching me when they need to study for themselves, besides someone who loves you?) Is someone up there testing my ability to hold on to life, to be strong by myself and overcome difficulties?

Because i've failed to do so. I'm barely holding on.

What you are capable of.

2011-08-29T20:18:00.000-07:00

Should i believe in the power of love or the power of you? Because i know that what we shared was definitely love. Or should i believe in our 7 months relationship or the power of you. You are strong but to think back about us being together before, two hearts that beats as one, the bond that only the both of us shared, the love within our eyes, the touched like gold, the care that no parents would give, the time that no one has experience before,and the wonderful memories that will only be kept within our minds. We would be stronger than you, logically we can break you apart. But our relationship is in your hands now. You have grown to be a stronger man than I've ever thought you would be. You too , could just break the relationship apart. And me? I'm just a small little part of this love story. So powerless yet so easily destroyed.

Good o' times

2011-08-27T23:21:00.000-07:00

Look who's the innocent little kid smiling cheekily there ? ;)

Everything ends.

2011-08-27T23:12:00.000-07:00

everything ends

The relationship you are in now will end.

The happiness you will experience tomorrow will end.

The depression you feel today will end.

Your life will eventually end.

Nothing lasts forever.

The most important reason to live in the moment is that nothing lasts forever. So why not enjoy the moment while it’s infront of you? Why not be present? Why not accept life for what it is: a finite span of time with infinite possibilities.

:')

2011-08-27T23:02:00.000-07:00

I wish i could turn back time. You know never made the mistake that i made. But what can i do now? Look back at yesterday and mourn? Decisions are final. I've tried my best (trust me when i say my very best it is) but nothing can be changed. I guess i have to move on and be strong (': I guess when they say happiness is not a forever, it is true. I'm going to hold on to the wonderful memories that we shared together. For " Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll." I 'll never regret the time with you (:

Sports day 2011

2011-08-27T22:44:00.000-07:00

4x400m we got second place because Ann gie weren't present.
4x100m - gold
long jump- silver
100m- silver
triple jump- gold ( broke record)

My proudest moment, the moment i've always waited for. After so much of hard work with the house deco. Special thanks to Jin Chuen (:

Joy in our faces (:

Tze Yu, Ann gie, Me and Michelle.

Green house won it all!

P/S: Thanks for the support through out the events (':
I wouldn't make it through if it wasn't for you.

Back to oldself

2011-08-27T22:41:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry for not blogging for such a long time. i guess i was too occupied with myself to even bother to blog. or may be it's because my feelings were always over the moon that's why i find no need to express my feelings here so that i will feel better. but now i'm back to normal again. So the good news is i'm going to blog often (:

Sunway Lagoon

2011-06-10T02:04:00.000-07:00

When i told you the one thing that i wished to do most during the holidays was to go to Sunway Lagoon,
you took responsibility and arranged the date to make my wish come true.

When i say i wanted to wear the top that i saw in Forever21 for tomorrow,
you drove all the way there to buy it for me.

When i was worried while packing my stuff,
you went through the list of stuff to bring with me.

When i got too excited about going to Sunway Lagoon till i cant sleep, you talked me to bed till i fall asleep silently.

You bought 14 buns for me for breakfast before we go for the trip ( ignoring the fact that your family accidentally ate 12 of it and left two haha)

You brought sunblock, shampoo, towel, extra clothes and pads! for me in case i forgot and to reduce the weight of my bag ( you know that i hate carrying heavy bags).

When i told you that i was afraid of losing my Ic (murphy's law),
you kept my Ic and cash for me.

You carried the float for me up the steps for the ride.

When i was hungry or thirsty,
you made sure that we get something for me to eat or drink.

When i felt a bit down because we lost the watch that you needed to wear on your wrist as ticket entry and had to pay Rm 50 as refund,
you told me not to worry we will make our own little save account and we will take turns making breakfast for each other during recess.

You arranged transportation for me to and fro in order not to bother my parents.

You made sure that i had a wonderful time with you today which I EXTREMELY DID (:

Sometimes i believed that to express love, is not just by saying the three words "I LOVE YOU" but by doing things that shows the person that you truly care and love for that person. Basically you don't even need to tell the person that you love her/him because just by some acts, the person can truly feel your love in the heart and baby.. you made me feel this way.

P/S: I had a blast with you. The word that i want to say to you most is Thank you (:

No regrets

2011-05-30T10:27:00.000-07:00

I REALLY NEED TO STUDY RIGHT NOW.
SOMEONE PLEASE INSPIRE ME!

LESSON #1

2011-05-22T00:51:00.000-07:00

I wonder if the ugly duckling felt stupid when he realized being pretty didn’t magically solve all of his problems.

If i was not born this way, if i was a more like a nerd,
would things be different for me, would i not get involved in all this damage?

A quarter of life

2011-05-22T00:48:00.000-07:00

The education fare and career choice held in my school recently made me realize I'm really growing up and time is passing fast. I still cant believe I'm 17 years old and 4 months now. Last year of my high school year and next year heading to college.

It makes me wonder if I have live a quarter of my life to the fullest or just by existing. I didn't enjoy high school as i can, I didn't appreciate people who was dear to me, I didn't study hard enough. I also wonder what would the next chapter of my life be without you, what would be the best way we part. But for now, i just have to live in the present..

17 things i would want to do during my highschool life

2011-05-22T00:45:00.000-07:00

1. Organize a sleepover party

2. Plan a trip to Sunway Lagoon or Genting

3. ~~Have my ever best romantic valentine’s day~~

4. Plan a successful surprise party for someone dear to me

5. Being surprised on my birthday

6. Be the smart ass ,top 6 in class that I used to be

7. Thank or do something special for people who make an impact in my life

8. Use the candles that I kept in my cupboard for a romantic candle lit night.

9. Go to prom dress up beautifully with someone I love.

10. Get a scholarship

11. Fall in love and enjoy every magical moment of it

~~12.~~ ~~Represent Selangor, Mssm in athletics~~

13. Win greenhouse deco competition

~~14.~~ ~~Beat my competitor~~

15. Get crazy and party all night

~~16.~~ ~~Be in the school volleyball team~~

~~17.~~ ~~Live high school life the way I’d imagined how it would be~~

How a child learns

2011-05-22T00:29:00.000-07:00

If a child lives with criticism, he/she learns to condemn.

If a child lives with hostility, he/she learns to fight.

If a child lives with ridicule, he/she learns to be shy.

If a child lives with shame, he/she learns to feel guilty.

If a child lives with tolerance, he/she learns to be patient.

If a child lives with encouragement, he/she learns confidence.

If a child lives with praise, he/she learns to appreciate.

If a child lives with fairness, he/she learns justice.

If a child lives with security, he/she learns to have faith.

If a child lives with approval, he/she learns to like herself.

If a child lives with acceptance, he/she learns to find love in the world.

How was your life lived?

Eye to eye

2011-04-26T00:13:00.000-07:00

FACE TO FACE

CHEEK TO CHEEK

HAND IN HAND

LIPS TO LIPS

and yet it's hard to see things

EYE TO EYE

The unspoken

2011-04-15T19:51:00.000-07:00

I kept my fallen tooth under my pillow when i was young.

I made plenty of wishes when i see yellow shining stars in the gloomy sky.

I hung a long stocking during Christmas eve night,
thinking that the bigger socks i put the bigger present i have.

I behaved like a good kid in case i fall into Santa's naughty girl list of the year.

I kept my fingers cross hoping not to be caught
by teachers when i was up to some mischief.

I believed in fairy tales.

I loved with all my heart,

believing that there will always be a happy ending
like the story of Cinderella, Sleeping beauty, Snow white.

I blew candles and made wishes on my birthday for the past 17 years.

I kept all my wishes to myself knowing that
if i tell someone else my wishes would not come true.

I believed that miracle happens.

I prayed to God every night before i sleep.

Did my wishes come true?

End of the road

2011-04-15T18:00:00.000-07:00

It's the end of the road for me and many of our form five seniors in athletics. It has been years we shed our sweat, tears and blood to achieve our goal, aim for the stars and reach the sky. We gave our full service and loyalty to our beloved school- Smk Taman Sea. We owe a lot to our dedicated and hardworking coach- Encik Zulkifly. All the tough training and stern scolding paid off. We gain so much at the same time. So many life lessons learned, so much happiness shared, such powerful teamwork built, so many achievements achieved, such strong bond among members built, so many experience gained and such unforgettable memories made.

MSSD 2011 ( 29th March- 1st April )
Kelana Jaya stadium

4x400m race

long jump- my biggest fear

My competitor- 'Amo' Wan Anis (:

Our mid distance relay team, I'm the third runner

Posing with the huge trophy

My jump is super epic haha

The form five seniors and retirees ):

Candid shot - Big smile on everyone 's face :D

Achievements:

triple jump - gold medal
long jump- silver medal
4x400m- gold medal
Ranking first place among district schools

MSSS 2011 (11th April- 14th April)
Kuala Selangor

The place where we gather to have meeting and food

Utama Cheer

My best buddy- always there for me, for fun, for support, for encouragement(:

The last day

Petaling Utama Squad

Taman Sea

Achievements:

triple jump- bronze medal
Yuk Chai Selangor champion school
Taman Sea Selangor champion school

Well fed and loved (:

2011-04-09T23:47:00.000-07:00

There was plenty of food i remembered him making for me for breakfast. It was packed neatly in a small container not forgetting the fork and spoon, both put into a plastic bag and brought to school most of the mornings. Afraid of me getting hungry or even having gastric because of not consuming breakfast every morning. There were tuna and seaweed sandwich, cheese and ham sandwich, chicken roll, garlic fried rice, sausages and meatballs, milk and cereal, cookies, cheese tarts and cakes. The portion were super big for me, mind you its twice as much as i normally eat so that i would be totally full and my stomach would not grumble afterward. Haha. And during the period of time, i was mostly caught by teachers eating during lessons and soon I' m well known by teachers for that. haha. So in return i made food for him too, but of course not as often as he did because I'm not good at it.

I made him a fish sandwich. In it lays a paper. And on the paper it was written
" Of all the fish in the sea, you're the fish for me (: "

I did a kaya and butter toast bread too. On the paper i wrote,
" Without kaya butter, the bread will be tasteless.
Just like without you, my life will be colorless (: "

P/S: Pictures above are not the original one.

Bunny is a dinosaur

2011-04-09T02:00:00.000-07:00

The past had deeply carved its scar into my heart, and now it has been replaced by sheer joy (: Rainbow had just given birth to two newborn babies ( Twinkle and Teddy) on January 22th . This time, she had successfully brought them up to fine cute bunnies. Unlike last time, 5 of her babies left us in 4 days time because of not having sufficient milk fed by the mother. Now, approximately 4 months old, Teddy and Twinkle is hoping, jumping and eating like any other rabbits. They are so mischievous and naughty chewing cupboard boxes and running to forbidden places. They eat so much that our supply of food runs low fast. Meet Teddy and Twinkle (:

The total brown one is Twinkle and the one coated with brown and black is Teddy. It's weird that both of them have no white fur except a little under their tummies because their daddy and mummy are mainly covered with white fur and a little brown.

Both of them comfortably snuggling up in the box.

P/S: My dad assumed that my sister and I were calling him and he mistakenly answered us when we were actually calling "Teddy!". And it had happened more than a couple of times already!

You are not alone

2011-04-09T01:06:00.000-07:00

In some point of our life,
When the going gets tough,
When things happen unexpectedly,
When our last hope fades away,
When we feel the world is against us,
when we feel not loved and treasured,
When we feel it's not worth living anymore,
Some part of our barely unconscious mind,
Pops up the thought of the so call solution..

Don't worry, i have brains ;)

14.02.11

2011-04-09T01:05:00.000-07:00

MY WORST VALENTINES EVER.

Surprise!

2011-04-09T00:45:00.000-07:00

Some say: To gain joy and happiness in life is to make someone else happy,to bring joy to the lives of others, and share your own happy things to brighten someone else and by doing that you will gain countless happiness in life.

Recalling the last time i threw a surprise party for my classmate, I was such a bad liar that i thought my friend had already knew what was going on, that i burst out everything I was planing to him. When actually he didn't suspect a thing at all! This time after gaining experience, I manage to surprise the birthday boy!

Venue : Tropicana gold and country club
Date: 6th February 2011
Time: 2.00pm to 6.00pm
Activities: Eating at Japanese restaurant, cut cake and bowling

Here are the photos:

You could see the shock and surprise the birthday boy had (;

His close friends

Two in one : Hatta and Iqbal 's 17th

Permanent damage

2011-04-09T00:10:00.000-07:00

It was time to tattoo my heart, pierced deeply into my skin, heart and soul, forever unforgettable..

Back

2011-04-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

Its been long since i last blog. So now turn back the clock, I'm going to post some of the important things that happen in the past two months. I will try not to miss a single thing (:

LOVE- Jaeson ma

2011-01-19T19:19:00.000-08:00

Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean?

I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast .It is not proud.

Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why?

Do you have love?

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
(repeat)

She

2011-01-16T05:02:00.000-08:00

She was a girl who never played games, and acted confident when she was feeling the least confidence. She didn't gloat her achievements, or tell of them even though she had many. She lived in mistakes, in past regrets, and she's just beginning to realize that sometimes, you can't change things. That you can't go back in the past and sometimes, you just have to move on because life's too short to dwell on the unchangeable.

Addiction

2011-01-16T04:54:00.000-08:00

Its like an addiction. We started, and now I find it hard to stop.
I have accepted the fact.

14.01.11

2011-01-16T04:30:00.000-08:00

Thank you so much to those who made my seventeenth birthday an unforgettable day :) and to those who wished me and the presents. I have no idea why i was so afraid when this day came, may be because i was afraid of the disappointments or because I'm already 17 and the realization came to my mind that I'd never done anything useful in my life for the past 17 years ago. Or probably i don't want this wonderful day to past so fast. May be the three of them. I had a surprise party for the first time in my entire 17 years. haha. Ann gie ( born in the same hospital and same birth date) shared the same surprise party as me. Held in Hatta's condo, Iqbal Jonathan Leon Tze Yu Amanda Hong Jin turned up. You can picture my emotionless face when everyone shout 'surprise!'. Not because i wasn't thrilled or surprised, it was because i didn't know how to react. We karaoke, watched movie and partied. I had fun. I'm really touched honestly and i again, have trouble explaining my happy emotions. I just want to say thank you so much everyone and especially to you (:

When we walk into the door, i have no idea how to react other than laughing ;)

Each signed, if you'd realised there's no 'U' in the surprise. haha.

Thanks to Amanda and Tze Yu (:

Imagine us blowing and puffing non stop at the endless candle, that will not stop lighting up.

Boxes of Pizza finished by 9 of us.

The bbq chicken prepared by Hatta (:

Garlic bread

Hong Jin, Leon, Jon

And Hatta.

The four of us .

:)

2011-01-07T22:56:00.000-08:00

Beginnings are usually scary
and endings are usually sad
but its everything in between
that makes it worthwhile living

Are we now still in the beginning or the ending or in between?
Because i feel all three emotions as well.

The odds

2011-01-02T01:51:00.001-08:00

66 Not all relationships were meant to last. Breaking off from a relationship would mean that all your efforts in committing yourself to your lover might go to waste and your feelings invested in your partner hold meaning only in the past. However, if your relationship was not really suitable to start out with, forcing yourself to carry on with it might not be the best thing to do.

When you are deeply in love with someone, there is a want to stay and try to work things out even though there are things going wrong. If you have the determination and the endurance, it might be worthwhile to continue your relationship and try to find solutions for it first.

There are many who do not have the determination or the endurance, and when problems arise, they might give up easily, relying on a break up to resolve all their issues. The additional problem in such a case is the couple's lack of will to try and try again. Until they actually make an attempt to solve their problems, they could not have known if they could still remain together 99

Taken from Ezine articles

Do both of us truly want to keep it and believe that it is worth it? Do both of us share such strong feelings and commitment that we can overcome all the odds?

To my beloved brother :)

2010-12-26T18:13:00.000-08:00

Aloha ! greetings from Malaysia! We miss you (:

You know a few days ago we went out for dinner at Fish & Co, and the waitress asked us how many people dining in. Daddy said 5, so there was a table for four empty, but we have 5 . The waitress was busy looking for a table and after a while nobody pointed it out, but I'd realized there were 4 of us dining in only.

You are now far far away from us at Ohio, and we are still so not used to you being not by our side. Imagine when i need someone to fix the computer, someone to be my always on time driver, someone to teach me maths..etc. Daddy and mummy needs someone grown up to talk to, to clean the house, do the gardening, be the mechanical and plumber, be the map navigator and the list goes on.

Pei hsien needs someone to have fun too. This is what she said that day " Aiyo now no more koko to play at snow city anymore, no more fun anymore." I hate to admit this but you are a so much more fun sibling to be with than me. She was asking what do you think koko will be doing particularly every hour starting from the part where we separated at the airport.

I feel so weird being the eldest sibling at home now, having to take all the responsibilities. I really don't know how you handle it. In me and my sister eyes, you are near to perfect. You are good at so many things. Now you are going to leave me and Ph ( more to me) to do all the talking when we have to meet all our relatives during Chinese new year and you know we suck at it because usually you are the only one doing the talking.

Like everyone, just because we came from the same tummy, it doesn't mean we can bond along easily, sisterhood and brotherhood is a condition people have to work at , which me and you never really got it. Sometimes you really annoyed me, (correction most of the time) , but you are still my brother and we shared so many childhood memories and grown-up dreams.

I think we quarreled for toys sometimes, just like we argued for who doing the house chores now. See like you wanting to ride on my horse when you have a sports car ?

The diapers behind? i heard mummy complaining about you peeing in your bed most of the days, so i think you still wear diapers at your age too, with me.

We played pirates or pilots i guess?

Judging by the smile carved on my face, i think i had a lot of fun with you when i was young.

Just so you know, imissyou.

Hey (:

2010-12-25T02:39:00.000-08:00

I was thinking back of what happened between me and you the few days ago, and I’d realize that you are a man and I’m a woman. We come from different planets. We speak different languages. That’s why we misunderstand. I misunderstand and misinterpreted you wrongly. Now I understand that behind everything you do, there’s a reason why you do, feel and react this way. So to be fair, here I want you to know why I sometimes react at things in certain ways to, and I want you to be sure about the way I feel about you. Often I am afraid of appearing too needy, so i compensates by not needing anyone. In my mind I think that needing others is a weakness. I want to be an independent woman. But deep inside I want love, but I’m also afraid of getting hurt. I was thinking back and I think I was too oftenly finding reasons why I should not be with you, just because I don’t want to get involved in the risk of being in a relationship. When a man can’t handle me, I’d said I’d rather be alone. It’s because this attitude make me feel strong. A woman‘s tough exterior often hides a very sensitive hurt woman. I did realize that I need love just like everyone else but my fear keep me away from giving you chance, so now I sincerely want to apologize to you. I really appreciate you listening to me and all along if I sound like I’m saying it’s your fault that’s not what I mean. It’s not your fault. Thank you for everything (:

2010-12-22T19:44:00.000-08:00

Parting is hell,

but life goes on,

so smile as well.

=)

Singapore trip 2

2010-12-22T18:07:00.000-08:00

Singapore was overall okay, not totally exciting or fun,
neither utterly boring or dull.

Lets let the photos do the talking.

Segway

Cycling at siloso beach

check out the hot chicks beside my bro ;P

I dont understand how those sunbathing tourists can stand the heat.

The hotel i stayed two night.

The swimming pool at Marina Bay sands 5 star hotel that i stayed for a night :) the view was amazing but the water was freezing cold, didn't get to swim much.

I love the beach as much as anything, next time i must have a house next to a beach :D one of my dreams.

Candylicious, a heaven place full of sweets and candies.

We didn't pillow fight for the first time !

Universal studio. we had a few rides only because the 'Q' was too long, waiting hours are like one hour plus!

So we just cam whore most of the time.

I forgot what is this statue. I dislike going for roller coaster from now onwards!

trying out the hats

Our song :)

2010-12-22T17:58:00.000-08:00

INCOMPLETE by SISCO

The times when we used to stay till midnight,
standing next to the window talking and wishing me a good night (:

Bright lights, fancy restaurants
Everything in this world that a man could want
Got a bank account bigger than the law should allow
Still I'm lonely now

Pretty faces from the covers of the magazines
From their covers to my covers wanna lay with me
Fame and fortune still can't find
Just a grown man runnin' out of time

Even though it seems I have everything
I don't wanna be a lonely fool
All of the women, all the expensive cars
All of the money don't amount to you
So I can make believe I have everything
But I can't pretend that I don't see
That without you girl my life is incomplete
Said without you girl ahh
Listen

Your perfume, your sexy lingerie
Girl I remember it just like it was on yesterday
A Thursday you told me you had fallen in love
I wasn't sure that I was

It's been a year, winter, summer, spring and fall
But bein' without you just ain't livin' ain't nothing at all
If I could travel back in time
I'd relive the days you were mine

Even though it seems I have everything
I don't wanna be a lonely fool
All of the women, all the expensive cars
All of the money don't amount to you
I can make believe I have everything
But I can't pretend that I don't see
That without you girl my life is incomplete
Oh yeah that without you girl ahh

I just can't help lovin' you
But I loved you much too late
I'd give anything
And everything
To hear you say
That you'll stay

Even though it seems I have everything
I don't wanna be a lonely fool
All of the women, all the expensive cars
All of the money don't amount to you
I can make believe I have everything
But I can't pretend that I don't see
That without you girl my life is incomplete

Even though it seems I have everything
I don't wanna be a lonely fool
All of the women, all the expensive cars
All of the money don't amount to you
I can make believe I have everything
But I can't pretend that I don't see
That without you girl my life is incomplete

Without you girl
Without you girl my life
Without you girl my life, my life is incomplete
Without you girl my life is incomplete
Oh yeah, my life is incomplete

Oh yeah, yeah, yeah

If we are meant to be, we'll be.

2010-12-21T17:52:00.000-08:00

Don't care who started it , what it is about, who's the one right or wrong, we are both behaving like spoil brats and we should go to our room now at once and get grounded; A little laugh doesn't hurt.

We are like two people locked in a symbiotic relationship of mistrust, oppression and niggling enroachment. Or at least i am. There's so many difference among us. I'm not saying that we should think the same, do the same, feel the same, and react the same. It's just that we think, do, feel, and react too differently. The gap of difference is like fire and water, or heaven and earth.

Yep, gotta keep talking. When there's trouble afoot it's talking that will get us out of it. When we are going through bad patches, its talking it out that will sees us through. You don't like talking about it, you love to change subject. You make jokes, change the subject, avoid the problems, and forget about it. How can the problem ever be solved like that?

You'd never take me seriously. You think I'm stupid. I'm immature. I'm always over thinking, over reacting, over sensitive. You think i don't have feelings. May be you can just joke around and take it as nothing happened, but i cant. You think I'm invisible. I'm blind. I just don't show it, how i truly feel inside. Everything is about you.

You are trying too hard to make me happy the wrong way. You think by buying me presents, pampering me , makes me happy. But the truth is every littlest thing you didn't pay attention to upsets me even more. I'm simple. I don't want presents or treats. It’s the thoughts. Its little things that makes me happy. Like may be walking a mile to see me, sacrificing your time to meet me.

It'd just been a few weeks, and we are facing so many problems. At least i know i am. I don't think I'm happy being with you. I've lost the focus, strength, passion, drive, enthusiasm, effort. I'm afraid it will get worse. What's the point of being with someone and having the feeling of jealousy, mistrustful, resentful, depression.

It's not just only you okay, I'm know I'm in fault too. I apologize for being immature to have argued in the first place, for losing my rag, for being boorish or argumentative or stubborn or rude or childish if i did.And sorry for my blabbing for the last few minutes.

We are allowed to come out of the room now (;

Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.

Addicted to own a collection

2010-12-20T18:41:00.000-08:00

I owned 11 pair of dresses now :) just bought 2 from Singapore heh :) and I've worn 3 of them before only, others never. I love to have a collections of clothes shoes and others items. I'm a shopaholic and i think in the future I'd better get married to a rich husband ;P

5th

2010-12-19T19:53:00.000-08:00

I just gave up on one of my ear holes, the one on my ears cartilage. It really hurts. Even when I'm sleeping i cant lie on my right side. It's been 6 months and it's not healing yet. My right ears got bigger and swollen. Hopefully i don't regret it, because I've gone through so much pain and now I've decided to let it be :(

Fondant cupcakes

2010-12-19T18:30:00.000-08:00

This is my second time making cupcakes with fondant. Had a lot of fun making cupcakes with my sister. Took us quite some time and patience (which i'm lacked of). All these cupcakes are given out, though i like making it, i dislike eating it :)

I love the puppies.

Now i understand why people don't make animal as the decoration for their cupcake, because it's too cute and too cruel to eat it.

Christmas theme

Wrapped up nicely :)

Love is just an excuse to get hurt

2010-12-13T07:39:00.000-08:00

..
If you cant respect me then i think its not worth it.
Whats the point if you cant gain respect from the person you love.
You can never understand the pain i felt.
That's why you will never realize how much this means to me.
I'm tired of being mad and upset about it
because I've felt like this a thousand times already.
I cant do anything, by voicing out it will just ruin everything and makes no difference.
That's not my intentions.
I hate it when you think about me like that.
Yes i may look like i don't care, but deeply i do.
Yes i may look like I'm happy, but inside I'm not.
I just don't show it.
I'm tired of opening up to you because when i did,
all they do is pity me but nothing else.
They still do the same thing again and again.
I don't want you to pity me.
I want you to understand me.
Which i know is impossible. Never ever.
God I give up beating the odds..
I raise my white flag, I surrender.

Sometimes you just have to smile,
pretend that's everything's okay,
hold the tears and just walk away.

Three in one

2010-12-12T07:28:00.001-08:00

What's wrong with me nowadays.
Getting angry at the person i love so easily?
I'm all three :
GRUMPY
SLEEPY
BASHFUL

Sleepless night

2010-12-12T07:04:00.001-08:00

Holidays are almost coming to an end, and yet i didn't do anything useful. It's end of form four already and i don't even know a chapter of history and biology. I was hoping to catch up with it but unfortunately my mind just isn't in study mood. So disappointed with myself. What should i do now. I don't want to suffer hell when coming near to spm. This just isn't the holiday i had in mind. I'm feeling so pressurize now. I have this mind set that I think I'm a know it all. I am a superman that can catch up in lighting speed. I'm a genius that scoring straight a is not impossible. I know just because i did this before doesn't mean i can for the next time. What's wrong with me.

My heart's so not ready of taking the risk and handling the pain of being in a relationship.

Puppy

2010-12-09T20:44:00.000-08:00

I cant make up my mind if i want a dog. My mum finally agree to buy me one, but with the rabbits at my house how can i have both of them staying in a same house together, it will be worst than cats and dogs.

may be a Pomeraninian

or a maltese

or an Australian silky terrier by this colour.

or my last choice is Shitzu

Luhvaphobia

2010-12-08T20:16:00.000-08:00

I fear. Most of the time.
I'm afraid of getting hurt.
Afraid that my past will repeat itself,
since it did already a few times.
I'm afraid of being in a relationship,
afraid of loving truly and completely,
giving all my heart out.
I'm afraid of losing it.
Once i lose it, i will lose everything, including me.
Afraid of going through times when me just being alone,
me left going through every hell by myself,
me left crying myself to sleep.
I'm afraid to spend time with the person i love,
afraid of doing wonderful things together, making memories,
because in the end it will be so beautiful memories,
that i will long for so badly,
but lost the power to make it happen again.
I'm afraid that things will change, people change,
and so do feelings change.
I'm afraid of telling everything about myself,
afraid of revealing myself, opening up,
because when it ends my flaws will be used to weaken me.
I'm afraid to believe in promises and have hopes.
Whenever there's hopes, there's disappointments.

As much as i want you, I'm afraid i cant handle the pain when i lose you.

Fire lit, sparks rekindle.

2010-12-08T19:39:00.001-08:00

Who will ever thought that we will feel the same way towards each other again, like way back in the olden times we used to. That the sparks between us would relight it self and boom some chemistry happened. I just hope for the best and that it will last (:

Camerons Athletics Camp 2010

2010-12-08T06:17:00.001-08:00

I've nothing much to post about it, because it had been three years of me going for the same camp and blogging about it. So lets let the photos do the talking :)

Ann gie's and my monkey teddie we brought along :)

Washing up after running in the muddy field.
Washing up in a Longkang. lol

Michelle, Gie, me and Kimberley at the top of the hill.

Our road relay team which came up 2nd.
I almost died running 1000m,
but thanks to the support and encouragement of my team mates.

Candid

My room mates and run mates :)

The waterfall, awesome photo edited by Kim.

Taman sea track and field team, orange is our signature.

The bridge we crossed while jungle tracking.

Arabella hill, everyone's night mare.
I'm really proud of myself that i manage to accomplish the workout. 12:7:4

The soon to be form five. seniors.

The bus sitting position on the way home.
Was so dizzy and wanted to puke but cant.

Everything is so memorable to me, from the walking to and fro to the field, jogging 40 minutes in the cold morning, eating scones and kfc at brinchang, sleeping next to 3 annoying roommates who doesnt let me sleep, getting dirty in the mud, washing up at the big drain, playing games at night, drying my clothes, running till my very last breathe, the satisfactory and relief feeling when finish workout.. and many more. I will miss it so much. I remember dreading to go for the camp, because the work our it so tiring but now i totally dont regret going to the camp. All the fun there is worth the pain. Sadly, this is my last year attending this camp. The memories will remain forever :)

Heartbeat

2010-12-04T06:50:00.000-08:00

It's been quite some time.
I'm going out on a date next week :) shhh.
Hopefully everything turns out well.

Flashback of the week

2010-11-21T22:20:00.000-08:00

Rakan Muda Interclass Dodge ball tournament (12th & 15th NOV)

My teammates and I did well on the first day or more to luck I don’t know. We beat 4IX and 4A. 4A complained that it wasn’t a fair match, so we played a rematch and we WON. I’m part of the organizer team and the referee. The second day luck wasn’t with me. We lost all 3 matches against 4A, 4C and 4J. We played 3 sets. All 3 games we were so closed to it yet so far. At least, we are crowned the ‘double loser ‘title. Haha. The dodge ball game I was looking so forward to finally came to an end, not an ending I planned to have. Still, I’m really proud with my team members (:

BBQ Potluck party (13th NOV)

This Bbq party was organized to celebrate Karr-nn and Kum fong’s belated sweet sixteen birthdays. I had a lot of fun doing the bbq, cooking sausages, meatballs and butter bread. Though, I don’t like to eat them. It would be awesome if I got to jump down the pool, but I went home early (10:30pm still).

Shopping (17th NOV)

I went shopping with Kum Fong and Wen Keen at One Utama. To tell the truth, my close girl friends don’t really like shopping, they are more to the books type. They would rather spend time at MPH bookstore than shopping :( I had fun today though, watching 3d Megaminds and playing snooker. Thank you to both for providing me the transportation.

Melvin’s Surprise party (18th NOV)

We had the surprise party held at Paddington House of Pancake. The food there was nice (: Different school people attended Melvin’s party too, for as Melvin being so well known- the president of Leo club Smkts. I love counting the bill.

Flash mob (20th NOV)

I was torn between making the decisions going to OU hide and seek flash mob or Lot10 flash mob. In the end, my sister and I went to the lot10 flash mob accompanied by Kum fong , who make the impossible went possible (: We took bus to Lrt station, then Lrt to monorail Kl center, the monorail to lot10. The reaction of the crowd was amusing. Hundreds of people crowded, STOP and watch. That sent butterflies to my stomach but after a while it was okay. Rather than acting like a serious fool who’s not so good at dancing, I just laugh most of the time rather than dance. A model agency came up to me and asked whether I’m interested in being a model. LOL. After that we headed to 1u to watch Harry Potter.